Archive for July, 2009
~A small tale of my infatuation with stories~
Books are awesome!! So for my new “Life is a Musical” video, I decided to go to book-paradise and pay them a little tribute.
Beautiful, inspirational, and most of all: true!! If you have children; if you ever were one*; if at heart, you still are a kid: Sir Ken is speaking to you!
One of the most spellbinding lectures I have ever seen…
*send me a message if you’re the exception, I’d be most interested!
For more delicious bites of brain food: TED
Today, I felt great! And then I got really mad. And then I felt guilty for getting so mad. And then sadness overwhelmed me…
But throughout this roller-coaster ride of emotions how I felt above and underneath it all, was happy. Incredibly, intensely, incomparably happy!! Ever since I’ve accepted my path and decided to swim with my current by going against stream (goodbye conventional goals, hello heartfelt passion!), I found my peace. It’s a constant state of happiness that does not waver in bouts of grief or disappointment…
I can feel! And because I can, I try to make the most of the experience. I feel my feelings to the core, revel in them, drink them until quenched. Giving into your emotions is not weak, it takes courage and strength. Don’t think them away, dare to feel!!
It really is! Why just sing on stage or in a studio? Song is part of me, always… Even on the subway on our way home from the annual North Sea Jazz Festival in Rotterdam… :o)
*full circle moment: I used to sing on the tram as a baby and embarrass my mother… at every stop, I’d stop… wheels in motion and I’d ad-lib my little butt off!*
Any ideas for the next “episode” of Life is a Musical?? Let me know! And I will try to shine my light upon the gray, grace white noise with melody, color the transparency of the drawings of today!
I love looove loooooove stories. I get so excited over great stories! After reading Carlos Ruiz Zafón’s “Shadow of the Wind”, I was eager to read more. “The Angel’s Game” is story telling heaven! Yeah I only just started (lol), but the beginning of a book is just as pivotal as the ending!! Come on! How many times have you started reading a book with open-minded hope to close it again after a few pages of mind-numbing hopelessness? Right?? Right??!!
And so… Now that I’ve hopped on the Songstress plane, life is all song and praise! :op
I wrote this song, “Indulge”, when I was 15 and feeling romantic…
*This is the first verse and chorus, when the vibe is right and the Songstress plane is airborne again, I will do the rest of the song and post part 2. Any ideas for the setting…? Another restaurant? Up a tree?? Feel free to send me your ideas and if at all logistically possible, I will do it! Because, dammit: Yes We Can!!!*
-Back to the future: ancient MySpace blog entry dated January 7th 2009-
So I hear there’s this huge credit crisis happening… in the world. In the WORLD. That’s huge.
And I decided to quit my job. A reasonably well paying, stable, nice job! Foolish? Maybe. Just incredibly stupid?? Yeah… maybe. I am not being ignorant to external reality (…), I just know I would be in a true crisis if I kept denying what’s happening inside.
I feel like I’m 7 years old again, and entering a talent show with a fever. My mom wanted me to stay in bed, but I knew I would perform that day. I was being insane, but I had to!! It was drizzling and cold and gray (I could have gone with “it was just another day in Holland” as it’s almost always wet and the sky some shade of the white-black spectrum, but then.. you may have never been to this below sea-level wonder of a button sized country) and the show was outside. I have no idea how I pulled it off, but she let me go. I had a sore throat, could barely stand up straight and my eyes were teary. I cry when I’m really sick, so I cried. I’m not good at sweating, so maybe I cry to “sweat out” the fever through my tear ducts.. who knows… I cried. For those five minutes I was on stage, I felt on top of the world. I sang MJ’s “Ain’t No Sunshine” as if my life depended on it. “Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone…” There really was no sunshine but I was far from gone. I won.
To me, song is beyond and ahead of reason. It’s often the only thing to soothe me and give me some perspective. After a day of stress and uninspiring blandness, belting the energy out is the best way to unwind. When I feel I’m halfway out of body and not in tune, singing is the only thing that sets me right, pulls me back and grounds me while propelling me into infinite realms of magic. How magical music is…
So I’m giving up on the work stress. I’m hopping on the Songstress plane to give music a go. Music is a gift and I want to give it my all.